The Dreaded Question, Pt. 1

I know, I know.  I'm such a slacker.  Let's face it, I suck at blogging consistently.  It's not that I don't get on and catch up on everyone else's lives, because I do.  I just can't seem to find the time to sit down and write anything about myself.  I honestly used to love to write and wrote often.  When it was time to plan my wedding, blogging was a great outlet to give and receive new ideas and because it consumed my every thought, it was easy.

Now, I struggle a bit because what's important to me at this moment, might not be so important to ya'll out there.  I know, I should be writing for me, but sometimes, it's nice to know that what is going on in your life can be related to by others (i.e. it's nice to have a comment or two or twelve waiting for you).  I took some time away awhile ago to do some soul searching and I'm just now really starting to come out of it.  I thought after moving, I'd get back into the swing of blogging (and I thought I was out of my funk), but then a new job opportunity came my way and I decided that it was best to fly under the radar for a bit.  It worked out because I definitely don't think I was out of my funk!

So now you're probably wondering why I keep babbling about the fact that I haven't been babbling.  The point of all of this is that a lot of things have happened in my life in the last year or so and while some of it, I will not be blogging about (at least not yet anyway), some of it, I've decided might be worth it to put out there.  Not because I'm looking for anything from anyone, but because I think maybe it's time to use writing as my outlet again.

So why don't we start at the beginning?  (Don't worry, I plan on doing this in parts so I won't bore you for hours with this one post!)  Shortly before MJ and I got married (you can watch the video here), MJ accepted a job overseas.  Our original plans of having him out of the Army and home were pretty much squashed with the horrible job market that existed at the time.  Perhaps we didn't think that one out so well when we opted for him not to re-enlist, but nevertheless, we chose to have him separate from the Army and immediately began the job search.  I distinctly remember the night we discussed the overseas position-- I remember my eyes popping out of my head when he told me his daily pay rate and I also remember them quickly retreating back in when he told me how long he would gone vs. how long he would be home.  I remember thinking that the whole point of getting out of the Army was so that we could be together.  I was tired of living without him.  And now here is this incredible opportunity, but yet comes with such a high price-- the same price I had decided months prior wasn't worth it!

As you already know, MJ accepted the position and 3 months before our wedding, he left for his first 3 month rotation.  It was a bit stressful, but really only because of the wedding.  Day to day {normal} life was pretty easy.  I mean during his last deployment with the Army, we went 11 months before he came home for his R&R so I knew 3 months would be easy.  We did have a few scares that he wasn't going to make it home in time for the wedding (is it possible to get married by proxy?), but that was all settled and just a few days before our wedding, he safely arrived home.  It was perfect!

Naturally, after the marriage, what is the first question people ask you?  That's right., the dreaded..

When are you going to have kids?!?

Our response was what I think a lot of newly married couples say-- not right now, but eventually.  We just didn't know what eventually meant...